sad

sigh....
I was so upset yesterday night.. i was tired.. yet i dont wanna go back home cos i'm sick sick SICK of the work and then home routine. I felt that im wasting my bloody youth by repeating that stupid routine..

but yet... i had no where else to go to... no one else to go out with..

suddenly i felt as if the world shut me out.. where are my friends? do i even have? friends are going out but never ask me along.. or friends who dont even wants to meet up... frens whom u tot are your closest but yet not near u.. i did try.. not that i didnt... where did they all go to? What is happening??? i dont know

People are just so busy with their own lives that they dont even bother about me... i wan happening programs after work(not everyday though)... i need a life... a life outside my work.. a life outside my boyfriend.. a life of my own.. losing meaning in such a lifestyle now.. sigh... damn..